These days, I’ve really been struggling to find balance in my life. It seems like I have a lot of different things that I’m trying to juggle and I find that I’m excelling in none and mediocre in all. That’s sort of a sucky place to be in life.

Part of it has to do with E being on summer break, the other part with D being more mobile and active now, and the rest of it is just pure laziness. Slothful, undisciplined, laziness.

I know that when my life starts getting chaotic like this it means it’s time to take a step back, re-prioritize, and de-clutter everything until just the essentials remain. Reflect on what is best (the gospel, Christ), what is needed (Bible, prayer), and remove the rest. No matter how good a “thing” is, it pales in importance to what my soul really needs.

I know this and yet it’s so hard to do it! There are so many things vying for my affections and though my head knows that spending time at His feet will benefit me far more than reading through the latest novel, my (deceitful) heart keeps fighting me on it. I’m hoping that blogging about it will help keep me more accountable but my desire is to slowly switch out the lesser things in my life for the greater. There’s nothing wrong with kicking back with me-time but when it comes at the expense of neglecting the Word, it’s not worth it. Let’s not even talk about being an excellent wife and mother (both of which I’ve been failing a lot at lately); I’m just trying to get down to the serious basics – me, Bible, God. This is some real, real talk right now. I have a sneaking suspicion that as my focus shifts back to where it belongs, everything will fall into its proper place. Let’s see what happens with this, I’ll keep you guys updated!