It seems like I should have a lot to say during this time but when it comes time for me to sit and put my thoughts to words, I find my brain drifting away.

When all this COVID madness first started to hit us locally, I kind of took it as an almost fun little blip in our schedule. Yes, school would be canceled for a few weeks, maybe we’d all be holed up at home for a bit. It was a little annoying but also a little nice to get the reprieve … I made a huge list of to-dos that I wanted to tackle during “social distancing”. I made a schedule for my kids on what they could do during their days home from school. We adjusted and it felt fine.

But three weeks into it now, I’m realizing that my almost cavalier attitude towards the shelter-in-place mandate for our state was an act of denial on my part. The gravity of how different our lives will look for the foreseeable future is hitting me and I don’t really know how to process it. My kids will not get to finish their school years at school; we will finish it at home (most likely – it haven’t been officially announced but I’ll be shocked if it doesn’t become a formal announcement). Baby A won’t get to take her first ever preschool “school picture” (they take them in April). E & Baby A will celebrate birthdays at home. For the first time in 6 years, we won’t be hosting Easter lunch & egg hunt at our house after church service. The grocery store looks like a scene from Handmaid’s Tale – eerily few shoppers allowed in at a time, limits to what and how much you can buy, lines of people wearing masks and not talking to teach other/touching each other. It’s kind of creepy, lol. And add to all that an unknown end date and it feels a little surreal that this could actually be my life and reality right now. Is it possible that when we all emerge we will have lost actual months? Seasons? Could we have gone into quarantine in winter and be allowed out again in fall? WHO KNOWS.

Sigh – anyway. My survival mode as of late as been one of self-care as top priority. Self-care meaning, taking the time to make sure my home is not utter chaos because I thrive off my environment; taking time to get my workouts and Bible time; making sure my kids are happy and not being blobs; checking in with Hubby throughout the day for little coffee breaks (he’s my favorite coworker!) … and then everything else is second priority.

Ideally, I’d like to get some blog posts up but again – it’s not top of my list right now so we’ll see when I can muster up the creative energy to bang something out. Off the top of my head, I know I’d like to do a detailed update on how all my 75 Hard turned Sophia Hard challenge went. Once we get into a rhythm with distance learning and time at home, I think a day-in-the-life-of-quarantine type post would also be fun, if only just for documentation so I can look back in hopefully better times in the future.

Anyway, I hope all of you are safe and doing well! I saw something on the internet that said – remember, you are not STUCK at home. You are SAFE at home. And I think that’s a good attitude to have. Drop a comment below if you have posts you’d like to see from me and also just let me know how you’re doing!

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